BBBAAADDD week!

This has been a really bad week! I have been srtuggling with everything! My kids are making me feel crazy...I can't stop crying...and the knife weilding man is taking up perminent reisidence in my house. I HATE feeling this way. It is so hard to feel like you have no control over your thoughts and feelings. And it is so frustrating when there is no one who understands...especially my husband. I love him very much, and I know he loves me, but he just doesn't and can't understand. It has been a very trying week with Rachel...she hates taking her medicine and fights it everyday. I wish she could unserstand how important it is for her to take it everyday. WHY is it okay for me to stop and her not to? I understand how not taking my meds affects me....she cannot!

Have you ever felt like destroying something? That is so how I feel right now. Can you sense how scatterbrained I am right now? My thoughts are just random thougthts and feelings. I wish they made sense to me.